Thursday, July 28, 2011

Creature of Habit

Change is so hard! For some reason, I have been noticing lately how difficult it is to change even the smallest thing. It is so easy to get sucked into a routine, and so hard to change it, and before I know it, even THAT is hard to change... Weird, isn't it? Have you ever noticed this before? You've heard the term "creatures of habit," and I have come to believe that I truly am a creature of habit.

And I'm not talking about big things, here. It is the little stuff that will get me every time... Like working in the yard. I have always planted all our plants by myself. However, Brady helped me plant a few things a couple of times this summer. So the last time I bought some plants, I felt like I needed to wait for him to help me. Which is SO WEIRD, because I am more than capable of planting things myself. I just enjoyed it so much with Brady, I wanted to wait. I made myself plant the plants all on my own, because I knew Brady couldn't help me this time, but it was a tad bit painful. I missed my man!

Even watering the lawn and flowers is habitual, for me. If I do it in the evenings, then that is when I think I should do it. So when I NEED to do the watering in the mornings, it is a little more difficult for me mentally.

The way I read my books... I like to read books according to authors. So when I discovered Jodi Picoult, I read every one of her books. I couldn't read anything else! I read all the Harry Potter's in a row, all the Twilights in a row. And now I'm doing the same thing with a new author, Elin Hilderbrand. I don't want to read anything else until I've finished all of her books. See what I mean? Habit.

The kids and I used to listen to Elvis Duran and the Morning Show in the car. We LOVE that show! But our local radio station took them off, so now we don't have them in Eugene. And that has been a big adjustment for me and my B's. We miss Elvis and his crew! It feels funny to get in the car and not have their voices talking to us. They are a habit we were forced to break, and it doesn't feel good at all.

Everything I do seems to be a habit, for me. From the way I make the coffee to the way I get on the computer in the mornings. I wonder if I'm a little bit Asperger's? I read a book once (by my favorite author, Jodi Picoult, of course!) about autism and Asperger's Syndrome, and in it one of the characters says we all have a little bit of Asperger's in us. I wonder if this is true? When I was a kid, my teachers thought I was ADD and asked my mother to put me on medication so I could concentrate. She didn't. Thank GOODNESS she didn't. She knew I was okay, even if I did have trouble focusing in my early years of school, and I graduated number three in my class, so what can we say? I don't know if I'm a little bit Asperger's or if I'm just habitual.

Whatever the case is for me, I don't think I'm alone. Think of all the habits people have! From getting a cup of coffee in the morning to grabbing a fizz (soda pop) in the afternoon to getting the mail to cooking dinner to smoking a cigarette... Maybe this is why it is so easy for people with alcoholism or drug addiction to become trapped in their disease - because we are already predisposed to being creatures of habit. Add in the devil's poison, and if you're one of the unlucky percentiles of people with the disease of addiction, there you are - sunk.

So the point being, in a world where nothing ever stays the same and change is constant, isn't it ironic that we all crave our little habits? What about you? Are you a creature of habit?

1 comment:

  1. Oh yes! I have the ability to hyper-focus on things that are not important - like reorganizing cds or rating all the songs in my ipod and sorting them by mood... I think it makes me feel that "flow" where your body and mind are so focused on that one effort time just goes whizzing by - a little scary when it something so silly - but gratifying nonetheless. Don't be too hard on yourself for your habits - that is in our genes and DNA to have safe routines and habits, that is how we train our animals right, and our babies when they are so tiny? I think the crazies are the ones that never have a plan, are always late and have no sense of time!!
    Hugs, Nicoley


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